Idiocy

Ah yes, time for my bi-monthly installment of a collection of errant thoughts and musings never intended for public consumption. But what the hay…what’s a blog for anyway?

Disclaimer: The following is not intended for any specific demographic. However, certain portions may lead to self-loathing and self-deprecation. Proceed at your own risk… (you don’t usually see something like this at the top… Well there’s always a first for everything!)

Have you ever come to a point in your meager, transitory existence where you thought you were worthless and everything in life was pointless? Have you ever tried to do something for the betterment of the universe and it all seemed like a waste of blood, sweat, and tears when all was said and done? How about putting effort into cheering yourself up as a measure to prevent self-destruction? Has life been so unkind its starting to seem suspiciously like some avenging angel intent on your extinction?

Ok, come to think of it… NO. So what’s with the asking then, eh? Well, it’s just this hunch I have that millions of people the world over, right this very moment, are thinking stuff like that. To these folk life is a miserable stage with a demented director calling the shots. It’s like getting kicked in the wazoo and falling head-first into the edge of a marble-edged formica kitchen center table… (slow motion) erk… have to lift… arms… table coming up… come ooon… crap, it’s too laaaate!… How I hate dreams where you can barely move out of harm’s way… that’s when you realize you’re trying to avoid … nothing. When you start wondering what you were running away from in the first place.

Ok back to life in the real world. Now about people in dire helplessness. It’s the sad reality. Question… are you one of these people? Have you been dealt a losing card and are ready to call it quits?

It could have started with someone offering you the cold shoulder, or an insult that felt like a pike was thrust into your neck, or maybe someone left you out of their will, or it suddenly dawning on you that you are totally expendable in this dog eat dog world… you bet your kid’s senior year at college on the losing horse… when all that you’ve been working for the past 10 years was actually, on second thought, a total waste of time… "Aww bloody hell. Why am I still on this earth!!!", you scream, angst an understatement of astronomical proportions. "What else is there to live for? Why was I even born?" Familiar questions? No? Ahh yes, the person at the back, raising his hand…

Yes, life can be severely difficult mentally and physically… heh, speaking of understatement. Crises like these could be described as a ‘where do I go from here?’ kind of thing. A moment in your life when you just can’t see enough over the hill you’re approaching. A sinking feeling of uncertainty that the future’s a bit murky for your tastes in view of your self-evaluation.

I’m sure at this point in folk’s lives, a lot of fears take hold of them, moments of reflection, the visage of ‘The Thinker’ comes to mind, moments of utter depression and despair. All of these situations make people do unusual things like lock themselves up in their rooms for days on end, sleep till the wee hours of the afternoon, eat two tablespoons of chow before exiting the dinner table or the complete opposite–like munching on a cow for the entrée. Facing bouts of sheer helplessness and hopelessness, happy holiday heartbreaks. Similar symptoms but varied raison d’être.

It’s all a matter of realism, logic and society’s expectations. It’s all about those laughable ads on TV where people get along and society doesn’t realize it’s being duped. It’s all about how people can get along through whispers. It’s about how other people can’t seem to reach their potential when they have everything going for them. It’s all about how so many people don’t know what they’re missing and how they live life taking for granted the little things that make life meaningful and satisfying. It’s all about not understanding God’s purposes and why in the world He can make it so confusing sometimes.

Another reason would be the total waste people make of potentially life-long friendships. How expressions of acceptance have to be curtailed and eventually misunderstood. How hearts can’t feel totally fulfilled with what they’ve done for others simply because they could have and should have done more. And for acquaintances that should have been but didn’t happen because of the maddening awareness of the risk of rejection. It’s about the way people can keep in touch with others and give them so many expectations yet in the end fail to deliver and it would have been so freaking easy to deliver. It’s all about being frustrated over their limitations. Limitations they seemingly have no power over.

Let me tell you folks that I’m a Christian and believer of Christ as my Savior. What would I do if I were stuck in a rut with no foreseeable out besides a divine miracle or Christ’s Second Coming? Well one thing I’d consider is living one day at a time and trying to be sensitive to what God brings to my attention for that day. Though at times I may feel I must be chastised for entertaining the thought that my God is unfair. I also think that’s one reason people go through suffering. It’s God dealing with an ingrate.

One thing is clear. God has a purpose for whatever happens in life. It’s completely beyond our comprehension and the bounds of logic why. I’ve always believed He is a God who knows what’s best for all of us and our situations fit perfectly with His plan. What I believe we should strive to do is be more sensitive and attentive to Him and try to prevent ourselves from sinking deeper into oblivion. It’s a way of expressing that God is in control and our lives are in His hands. Think about it before you go to your nearest "Shooters" for that .38 you’ve been eyeing as the great equalizer…

By the way, if Christ isn’t the Lord of your life yet, take less than 10 minutes to read this stuff… http://www.crusade.org/fourlaws/

Cheer up and enjoy life!!!